Well, I haven’t posted in a while but I do have to admit that I’m struggling with feeling like I’m missing food that I really shouldn’t be eating. I think probably everybody goes through this but I just really want to get through it. I’m wanting to be firmly in a sz 18 by April which I think is doable since I’m mostly in a sz 20.
I had a wonderful weekend with my nieces and nephew. We went downtown and walked around. I took some model-like pictures of Sarah and Summer really couldn’t be bothered and I got a couple of Charlie. We wanted to go to the zoo but because we had such good weather the park was packed and the zoo had a super long line to get into it.
I discovered something this weekend. I feel so good about myself because I have lost weight and gotten into smaller sizes in clothes but dang-it when I look in the mirror I still look fat. At first I thought well, just don’t look in mirrors but then I thought yes, look in the mirrors because that will help my motivation to keep on doing what I’m doing. Right now I just want to be at my goal weight and be able to eat for maintenance. That in itself will be trial and error at first but I don’t need to worry about that for a while I think I need to find some new things to eat because it’s possible that I’m getting bored with what I’m eating. Hmmmm….I have some cauliflower that I need to cook for some cauliflower rice. I’ve run out of my coconut oil but I’ve got some PB2 coming on Tuesday. I think I might get some tuna because I’m really not into red meat. I’m also not into cooking. Oh well, I’ll figure out something